I hate the feeling of being used. So, I'm doing awesome right? Loving life, finding joy and so on... Going back to school on Sunday, super excited except for missing my besties Becca and Joyce. I can't wait to get back at the same time. This monotonous crap is killing me. I'm totally out of my element.
Anyway... the being used part. I feel super manipulated. Like someone met me, took my feelings, twisted them around, changed me, and stomped on them hard. Like, made them bleed. And I'm finally starting to pick up the pieces and fix it... loving Jesus and knowing who my true friends are. Then apparently you need me in your life. Oh really? Why ya still being a jerk? Nothing else worked for you so you are going to fall back on me... Yet you won't get yourself out of this miserable situation and you are tempting yourself even more with going home.... You need HELP. And good influences you say??? Well you are STILL pushing them all away. Going to church is a start, but you need a change of lifestyle. AND you need to start being a LOT nicer to the people who actually care about you rather than just hang while you shove poison down your throat. I understand you are hurting. But don't ask for my help if you aren't actually going to use it.
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